So this week marks the beginning of year 12…the last year of high school! What?! In a way I’m both happy and relieved that 14years of school is finally coming to an end (I repeated year 11 due to moving) but on the other hand I’m a little bit cautious of what my elder have been telling me. They keep droning on and on about how I’m going to miss this period of my life, and how much more complicated the life gets. And while I don’t want to get caught up in the complexities of life, I guess I’ve figured that bills, relationships and careers are inevitable and there’s nothing I can do to avoid these things. Nether the less I’m happy to be entering the beginning of the end of this chapter of my life and transitioning into the next phase-however scary it may be.
Even as a child myself I’m still in shock of how quick life flies by- I mean I still remember the year that I graduated from primary school 6 years ago! My mental self is still trying to catch up with my physical self…from a young age I’ve always been scared of growing up and dying; it sounds stupid-like a silly irrational fear but to this day this anxiety had stuck with me. I’m not sure what it is but I really detest the feeling of leaving the life that I’m in now; knowing that the people that are in my life right now will suddenly become nothing the day that I leave this world. I just really hate that everything that is my reality right now will become nothing…that’s why I often question my consciousness; is what I’m seeing now a figment of my imagination or is it really real? That’s what scares me. What if everything that exists around me is nothing more than a made up reality created by my own thoughts? What if tomorrow I wake up and I’m somebody else with a different life in a different world?
I guess this just fuel for encouragement…to appreciate the things that we have because we will never know when our time to leave this world will come. Maybe it’s just a matter of ignoring these anxieties and living, truly living.
So the past week has been really boring- due to the commencement of exams and a mini study break- BUT have been out and about a little in the past few days! I went shopping with my Aunty at DFO in Essendon and bought a lot of stuff…more than I had anticipated if I’m honest. I was planning to buy quire a bit; but in the end that angelic voice in my head had rendered itself unconscious. Nether the less, I am very happy with my purchases.
The following day I went out to the city to watch my cousin perform a dance routine at the annual ‘Hispanic and Latin America festival’. I’m always in awe of the environment of these events; it just feels like a large scale get-together. I love the sense of unity that is created in these social occasions, everyone is there to enjoy a diverse range of food, compelling entertainment along with others that appreciate the topic of celebration- creating an all round good vibe.
…apologies for the half devoured food; I was just too exited to eat and still new to taking pictures of everything haha
So, before I went out I was planning what to wear; which is always a hassle for me because it’s constantly a matter of trying to find pieces that not only matches but also conforms to the current fashion culture. However in the recent months I’ve been watching Jenn Im from ‘Clothes Encounters’ on YouTube (check her out here: https://www.youtube.com/user/clothesencounters) and her fashion philosophy is one that I endeavour to weave into my own thoughts. Her way of approaching fashion is by treating it as an art form; a way of expressing how one feels- an ideal I truly respect. She explains that if she’s feeling dark and bland on the inside, she conveys this mood through the colours/textures in her clothing. I feel like this is a fairly therapeutic way for people to express their emotions- as opposed to other damaging methods. Anyway, I decided to dress myself in this ensemble as I was feeling particularly weird and a little cheeky; so pairing stripes and polka dots seemed to help express just that.
And it felt great! I wasn’t trying to please anyone; instead I simply just showed people the mood that I was in though what I wore.
Moving on, I went for a walk in a nearby park/track that surrounds the perimeter of a lake and wanted to share this beautiful shot
Finally, I’ll conclude with a picture of Archie pulling a very lovable face…enjoy!
Two words that truly sum up the content of this video; voiced and illustrated by third graders, this is really worth watching. The music and simplicity of the clip depicts the very nature of a child’s mind- something that adults grow out of too quickly. We become too engrossed into the complexities of the world, that we don’t get to appreciate the things that are going on around us. At times we are caught up in talking to our friends, families and colleagues that we never stop and just take in the beauty of the world- social media and the internet allows us to travel the world without even leaving our front door!
My favourite part from the video is that
They’ll tell you to be real, be realistic. But realism is often an excuse for pessimism, and you can’t let other people’s opinions define your reality. Make the commitment wholeheartedly. Stop thinking. Just do it. Do it for you, the real you, because you deserve it. You don’t get to do-over your life, so live your dreams
Often we start things, we get a spark…an idea that generates a great deal of innovation, we get lost in the fantasy of what happens after we achieve this goal that we neglect the hardships that must be overcome beforehand. We are sensitive to negativity; people that say ‘You can’t do it’ begin to get to our mind and lose our sense of motivation. The desire to want to ‘fit in’ and conform to society norms start to shape our behavioural and cognitive patterns, no longer do we think outside the square, for fear of rejection and humiliation.
When I feel like slacking off at times I like to tell myself, not do anything half heartedly; we have a whole heart for a reason. So don’t give up, believe in yourself and what you want to achieve; your persistence will give you the greatest feeling when you have accomplished what you set out to do…grow your bamboo trees!
Another uneventful day; listened…well saw Taylor Swift’s new music video for Blank space this morning, I honestly love her as an artist, singer and person but in my humble opinion, that video was completely psychotic yet brilliant at the same time. It’s basically depicts domestic violence/abuse yet the there’s a ‘don’t mess with me’ vibe to it; that’s why I don’t know whether to love or hate it haha…I used to (and still do) love her stuff but I just dislike how she’s changed up her style. I mean the essence of her is still ingrained into each song, however I feel that she’s losing her country still- the influence from pop is excessive, which is bummer. I loved when it was just her and her guitar…no back up singers or technological touch ups (eg the echoes).
Even her demeanour has changed, thanks to the impact of the media…she’s becoming thinner and thinner. While she maybe naturally thin or under a lot of stress, it is scary for people to see- even my grandma noticed her miniature frame, and that’s saying something!
I’m not trying to ‘body shame’ her or anything like that, I’m just really concerned for the younger prepubescent girls/teenagers that look at such well known people as role models. They may be good people and have excellent, down-to-earth personalities, but at the end of the day what do people really know? All we really see are the articles from gossip magazines and the latest red carpet photos; these do not really depict the actual nature of the celebrity…after all a picture tells a thousand words. With the technology becoming a day to day necessity, young girls are able to access these images and slowly shape their perception of beauty. My TEN year old cousin Francine* announced to me last school holidays that she ‘wanted to lose weight’. And let me tell you that made me really upset; she is already really small for her age in terms of height and weight (I’m talking around 25-28kg). But that is not what upset me the most; what got to me was when I asked her why she wanted to lose weight and who said she was fat- to which she replied with ‘I don’t know I want to…I think I’m fat’. Now that really really killed a part of me; to know that my TEN year old cousin already had thoughts about body image and ‘being fat’ generated great concern within me, because I myself had only begun to really care about the way I looked around the age of fifteen(ish) now at seventeen I’ve learnt to let some of that anxiety go. But at the tender age of ten (and this goes for all young girls) they do not have the ability to guard themselves from the being molded into societies manifestation of beauty. Even some mums are caught up in achieving a picture perfect body; so with all these influence from the environment it’s no wonder their perception of beauty is distorted. It’s not a case of nature vs nurture, but rather a combination of both that makes gives this issue it’s catastrophic damage.
Children should NOT have to worry about these adult issues. I don’t know if you have noticed but I’ve found that youth of the current generation are maturing faster and faster; and if I took a wild guess it is not due to better parenting- quite the opposite actually. Take a look around, kids today are not sitting with a book in their hands, they’re sitting with iPods, iPads, smartphones, tablets etc. They are CONSTANTLY exposed to everything in the world, it’s scary to know that my twelve year old cousin Anthony* has a better knowledge of these devices than me. You know why? Because parents are becoming too lenient. It has become so easy to simply put a child in front of a TV to keep them entertained, even those less than five years are handed a smart phone to play with once they become restless. The younger generation are spoilt because they get whatever they ask for, simply due to the increased accessibility for parents to purchase these items for their offspring. Thus as a side effect children have a great opportunity to regularly expose themselves to stimulus and develop at a quicker rate. I mean all children have to do when they don’t understand a word/phrase their parents said is type it into ‘Google’ and within SECONDS at lease a couple hundred thousand hits come up. It’s that easy.
I’m not blaming anyone, lets just make that clear. As a teenager myself, I am merely just observing the factors that fuel this issue, I’m sure it’s all been said before, but the solution isn’t about the amount of times that we can reiterate the causes. It’s about addressing these catalysts and protecting the younger generation from spiralling out of control.
*name changed for protection
Don’t aspire to be the best; aspire to be a better version of yourself
So decided to start a blog…again. Basically I’ve started a lot of blogs but never really continued with them after a few posts haha, but today, since exams are finished and I literally have nothing to do…I thought that it was a good time to start afresh on a brand new site.
SO hello everybody! What’s new on the interweb? It seems that in the world we live in today it is so easy to look someone up and immediately know their life story- kinda weird huh? (woah that was a little off topic) anyway there’s no real reason I started this blog; like my URL suggests I was/am just very bored- since I don’t know what to write about, I’ll just recount my day for those who are reading:) (that’s what people do write? Don’t judge me I’m new to all this still aha)
Well where to begin…today was the day of my LAST EXAM- of this year anyway. Not a real celebratory event but still worth mentioning haha. The exam finished at 10:30 so I just went home and basically did nothing; although I did finish off season 1 of ‘Orange is the new black’ which in my opinion is an okay series…still not mad keen on it though. I mean the mini stories are great but the way that they continually drag it on makes it tiring. If you’ve watched the series what do you think?
The rest of the day went by pretty quick actually; sneaked a picture of Archie sleeping, he’s honestly the most annoying cat but you really gotta admire him for his cuteness
Look how precious he is! Awwwww
After admiring his temporary cuteness, I played on my guitar for a little bit- still trying to learn but I don’t know I just get frustrated because I’m one of those people that gets annoyed if I can’t master something in a short amount of time. If there are any Chinese readers out there then they will know what this delicious dessert is…
I just realised you can’t really see it but its grass/herbal jelly (or leng fun) so good for the pre summer weather! If you don’t know what this is, its um hard to explain but it’s pretty much a jelly that’s black in colour and made out of a plant; that’s related to the mint family (hence herbal jelly). Traditionally I’m fairly sure they just have it with a sugar syrup and the jelly itself- not many add ons. Since I’m not traditional like that I ‘westernised’ it haha and added some fruit and ice cream!
And with that I think it’s time to end the blog post, apologies if its a boring post- I don’t actually know what to write about, so I just rambled;) hopefully you enjoyed reading about my day- I’m going to end with three things I was grateful for today…
1. Freedom from my last exam
2. Chatting to my mum
3. And just being able to be happy